I have been absent here for a while. There’s a lot going on and I’m not really comfortable posting about all of it. I will tell you that lately I have been battling fatigue and I’m not sure why. I suspect it is stress related. I have not been eating well, not been exercising and not sleeping much. Prayers would be greatly appreciated –most specifically for my sister Melanie who is facing a very big ordeal right now.
I know it’s frustrating to be waiting for something but I need to ask that you do wait and I have no idea for how long. Most specifically I need to ask that you wait for the Mater Amabilis plans. They are on hold indefinitely and I am trusting that if the Lord wants it to happen He will make a way because I am doing all I can right now.
My morning meditation recently has been about hope and how it must be so firmly founded on God alone. I have a tendency to think I can do it all. Spiritually, materially, whatever. Time and again I am wrong and slowly, mercifully the Lord shows me my error. He lets me fall and I am grateful for it. Trials and difficulties are all about detachment and realizing that we cannot do anything of our own strength.
“God wishes the certitude of our hope to rest upon Him alone. Although He demands our cooperation and our good works, He does not want us to base our confidence on them; in fact, after having urged us to do all that is in our power, Jesus added: ‘When you shall have done all these things that are commanded you, say: we are unprofitable servants” (Luke 17:10).
So here I am. An unprofitable servant. I have nothing to offer.
But my hope is certain. What I cannot do He can. Whatever He wills it is good and I am glad of it.